UGh

" O God, be Thou exalted over my possessions. Nothing of earth's treasures shall seem dear unto me if only Thou art glorified in my life. Be Thou exalted over my friendships. I am determined that Thou shalt be above all, though I must stand deserted and alone in the midst of the earth. Be Thou exalted above my comforts. Though it mean the loss of bodily comforts and the carrying of heavy crosses, I shall keep my vow made this day before Thee. Be Thou exalted over my reputation. Make me ambitious to please Thee even if as a result I must sink into the obscurity and my name be forgotten as a dream. Rise, O Lord, into Thy proper place of honor, above my ambitions, above my likes and dislikes, above my family, my health, and even my life itself. Let me sink that Thou mayest rise above...."
AW Tozer, Pursuit of God

too convicting not to share. and why oh why was this my reading topic on my flight home tonight. i will attempt to pray through this as a source of comfort and encouragement. although leaving today was harder than ever for some odd reason. probably because all these trips i have had return plans, but now the reality hits that i don't know when i am going back to dallas, there will be a birth i will miss out on, i am basically out of a job, and i am still here without a bff. i think that above prayer by AW touches on all those aspects....ugh i say.

thank you denton and family for encouragement. thank you Lord for hope and joy in my salvation.